i found something new....

some thing happened unexpectedly, something that no one dare to think of, yet it happen...it so awkward...
i found something new!..
this something may connect the lives of two different lives..worlds
only one thing bothers me....
will it work out?
will it be useful??
will it turn lives???

guess what is it you may be surprise!!!!!

ANO BA?!?!?!?!

(tagalog mode muna ako ha)
alam niyo ba kung gaano kahirap na hindi mo alam kung anong expression ang ihaharap mo sa isang tao?

alam mo ba kung gaano kahirap 'yong hindi mo na alam kung paano ang maging totoong masaya o malungkot?

alam mo ba kung gaano kahirap na hindi mo na alam kung tama o ano na 'yong ginagawa ko?

alam mo ba kung gaano kahirap 'yong hindi ko malabas o ma-open up man lang 'yong mga pinagdadaan ko?

grabe sobrang hirap...
sobra na akong nasasaktan.
napakdaming luha na 'yong sinayang ko para lang gumaan ang loob ko.......
bakit ang feeling ko, i don't deserve to be happy..
oo nga sabi niyo lahat tayo may karapatang maging masaya. pero hindi talaga 'yon maaply sakin ehh.

sorry nga pala sa'yo... hindi talaga ako sanay na nagiging dahilan para mahirapan ang isang tao ehh...para sa'kin di bale nalang ako kesa naman sa inyo.....

poor me

I'm so unfortunate that i haven't post a blog for my goodbyes for my year 2009, coz its a good-bad one. anyways.....just wanna say goodbye to 2009 and hello to 2010, even though i've welcomed 2010 half heartedly, lets face it with a smile :)?

Fireflies – Owl City Music Code

why do we?

why do we fall if we already knew in the end we'll just our aces?
why do we fall for someone. who'll just cause us pain?
why do we fall just waste our tears to unworthy persons?
why do we fall if after sacrificing everything you'll just lose?
why do we fall for someone who doesn't even look at you?
why do we fall to someone who'll just play their tricks on us?

i can't see the explanations who told me that FALLING in LOVE was the GREATEST that would you feel, for me its the WORST!

who do we seek during christmas??

actually tonight is Christmas eve, a little while it would be the birthday of our Lord Jesus Christ. upon scanning the messages on my phone, a friend send a text message about the conversation of Jesus and Santa Claus.

here's the details:

Santa and Jesus were talking:
SANTA:hey, Jesus your birthday is near?
JESUS:yeah you're right
SANTA:Happy Birthday to you!
JESUS:thank you! but you what Santa, i was jealous to you
SANTA:oh why?
JESUS: it just because when my birthday is coming, YOU are the they waithing for! not me.

With this simple conversation of Jesus and Santa, we may say it was just a pun for some others, but there is a hidden message behind those words that were coming out from their mouth. Now people seem to forget the true reason why do we have this thing called "Christmas", it is because of our savior who was born in a simple manger, not that big, fat gran who wore his red and white suit. But lets not set aside the fact because of this big, fat gran that make the spirit of the young ones alive and crave for this season!

Puso ng isang kaibigan..

Camille,

malamang alam mo na kung sino to..hehehehehe

I will always be there pag kailangan mo ako..
I will always be there to comfort you..and wipe your frozen tears away..
I will always listen in everything you say..sabi mo nga.."I don't need a friend who understands but a friend who listens.."
And I will always be the friend who knows how to let go of the things important to me..

Alam ko na ..siguro hindi na masyadong special 'tong message ko para sa iyo..I know you expect someone else who will give you this kind of letter..Alam ko na hindi ako ang taong iyon..

Pero kahit alam ko (because it's a fact) ..Pinili ko pa ring magbigay ng message kasi hindi ko masabi sa iyo ng harapan..baka sabihin mo nanamang O.A. ako.

Nagbigay ako ng message kasi yun yung tanging paraan para maiparating ang dinadamdam ng puso ko ngayon..(actually jealous..hehehehehe)

O.A. ba?...alam ko...hehehehehehe

I never wanted to tell this from the start..but the fact that I'm just a friend..hurts..because for me you are more than that..